Okay....it's official...I AM FREAKED OUT!!!

Yeah, I was just checking out one of my sister's best friends blogs because she's having a baby about the same time as me and she's really good about updating her page so you know what's going on...unlike me! HEHE Anyway, so I was reading her last blog and I happened to notice a blog from one of her friends http://genesis12one.blogspot.com/2008/11/nursing-babies-sleep-schedules.html so I decided to click on it and I read it. OMG!!!!! I am soooo freaked out! I am a total worry wart anyway and I'm freaked out about becoming a mommy for the first time and I read about breast-feeding and bleeding boobies and all the other stories of the moms that can relate and I AM FREAKED OUT!!! I don't want to "figure it out" by the time I'm a mom for the 3rd time. I know that being a mom and learning what your baby needs is by trial and error but I have to figure it out before hand...that's a must! Otherwise, I'm going to be clueless! I guess I actually feel like I'll be the only mother out there that didn't have a clue what they were doing until they did it. My sister breastfed both of her beautiful babies and I'm guessing she spared me from all of the gory details. Maybe she didn't have any gory details to tell but it seems like there are people out there that do! Why did my curiosity have to get the best of me? I was doing okay in the anxiety department until today. I'm really starting to believe that the most important person that any mom can depend on is God! I have to trust that he made me to be able to produce and handle anything that my baby is going to need from me. I really thought that I'd be more worried about childbirth but that's like no big deal when you think about the life you'll be responsible for after the fact. I guess I'll go take a chill pill now and relax!